Matilda was pregnant again and she knew it was stupid. She told herself that the pills would work but just realized she had missed some days. Looking at the results,she was saddened by the thoughts of another abortion. She had to have an abortion because she was not sure if she was pregnant for Jack or Henry,there seemed to be no other way.
Matilda had been heartbroken several times by men who claimed to love her, so she had to wisen up. She was dating two good guys same time for about a year now and was hoping that one of the relationships would lead to marriage. Prior to her becoming a two timing girl, Matilda was a sweet girl with good morals. She did not believe in sex before marriage and was a regular church goer until she met Ben.
Just the mention of his name made her curse. She prayed daily God to pay him back for all the pain he had caused. He left her standing at the altar after dating for 2 years. He suddenly realized he was not happy in the relationship. According to the letter he wrote, it was not working but he did not know how to tell her. He also told her in had lost the feeling. He had met someone and hoped she would forgive him someday. He also wrote,she deserved better, she was a beautiful,caring girl who any man would be proud to have ,the only problem he had was, he just could not go all the way and he did not want to hurt her.
How ridiculous that was! Matilda wept for days,weeks,months and then decided to move on. Ben did come back by the way,claiming it was cold feet but by then ,she had met Jack and Henry ,so she told him off. She still loved him, had forgiven him but what hurt her was that he lied to her and was not man enough to tell her the truth ,she figured anytime he felt distant from her ,he would leave the marriage in the future. Matilta believes that love is a choice because it is beyond the feelings. The worst part is they never had any fights. Everything seemed perfect.
Matilda brought herself back to reality , what was she going to do now?
Jack was getting ready to go to work. He had fond thoughts for Matilda but he really did not love her. He thought about the best way to let her go. She was a nice girl after all and he did not want to hurt her ,especially as she had told him about her last experience. He did not want to put her through such pain again. As he sat there pondering,his phone rang. It was Matilda.. She sounded serious, she had to see him urgently. He was surprised. He just told her to come over.
Matilda hesitated as she told Jack ,she was pregnant. She did not know what to expect,so she just hoped, he would say something positive. Unfortunately that was not the case. He told her, he was not ready for a family. He was sorry but she should decide if she wanted to have the baby or get rid of it.
Crying her eyes out, Matilda left his house. She did not want another abortion. She wanted this baby desperately but she did not want to be a single parent. She blamed herself for being in this predicament and blamed Ben. If only they got married as planned,she would not have been here today.
Wiping her eyes she had to go meet Henry. She knew of the two,Henry was a better man. She knew he was, because he was always so kind ,attentive,very generous and supportive. And although he was rich, he had no airs. As she got to his house, she found him and his secretary having sex. She froze. She had let herself in as always and she did not expect him to be home at 2pm. He tried to explain but she just ran away, leaving his house keys behind. Matida went home and locked herself in for several days and told her office,she had a family emergency.
She never heard from Jack again. Henry called several times but she did not pick up. She had to get rid of the pain and shame and accept she put herself in this situation. First she had to go to the hospital to do some tests. She had to be sure ,she had not contracted any STD and be sure the baby was fine.
As she walked into the hospital, she bumped into Ben. He looked at her and smiled, he was so glad to see her but all she could do was stare and the next thing she knew was she was on the hospital bed. As she woke up Ben told her she was the woman in the world and congratulated her about her pregnancy. Matilda burst into tears and began telling him everything ,he was quiet all through.
As soon as she was done, Ben prayed for her and told her he was going to check on her the next day. She could not believe what was happening. Ben prayed for her and was coming the next day? Well she told herself she could not trust him besides, after all the love they shared ,he ran away,but Ben surprised her, he came back the next day as promised with lunch and they chatted for a long time. He began to tell her of how he had found God and had become a better person. He was not the Ben she knew that broke her heart. He apologized and begged her to forgive him and asked her to date him again. He promised that this time it would be different.
Matilda stared at him and could not believe her ears. She was pregnant and was not sure who the father was. Ben knew all that and was willing to date her again. She told herself it was a trick and perhaps his guilt was the reason he decided to date her or worse,he was dying. She was not going to be fooled a second time. She asked him to leave. He pleaded for her to give it a thought and kissed her on her forehead. She still could not believe it. Ben had become gentle. This was too good to be true.
Meanwhile Henry had come in person to ask for forgiveness, it was a moment of weakness. He was willing to marry her and all, he wanted her. Matilda was getting confused because ,now she had to choose between Ben and Henry. On one hand Ben was the jerk who dumped her but was now a changed man and Henry was a man who cheated on her but then again ,she had cheated too. She took a deep breath and only could follow her heart.
Ben did not relent with his wooing her. Days went by and he was consistent. She did everything she could to push him away but all he did was show her love and compassion. He was patient and understanding. They prayed together, went to church together and she began to love herself again. She realized she had gotten into this self hate because she could not deal with the problem but focused of the person who hurt her, she felt free. She realised he was her hero, how ironic and she decided to let go of her pain.
Ben and Matilda fell in love again and this time it was stronger than the first time. They had worked on themselves, became grounded in God and when it was time for Matilda to give birth ,Ben was standing right there. Matida gave birth to a beautiful girl who Ben adopted immediately.
Love exists in so many ways..